So this week has been quiet the week. Monday was pretty normal. I went to James’s house to kick it for a while. Tuesday night I went to a Lambda Frat. Rush Party. I was planning on rushing for Lambdas’ Lil Sis with my roommate Leah. I’m still in the process of deciding and I haven’t made up my mind yet. But anyway, I got wayyy to drunk that night; I had 4 shots of vodka and 4 cups of beer from playing a game of beer pong with my roommate Antonia. We lost to my other roommate Precilla & her twin in the Frat. I kept one thought in my mind: don’t throw up at the party, if anything do it at home. When I got home I completely knocked out while Antonia and Sammy were talking on my bed. Feeling a little lost in their conversation, I just fell asleep. Everything was fine till I woke up at 2 am and threw up!! It was probably one of thee worst, but not the ultimate worse, throw-up sesh. because I had to take care of myself. All my roommates were sleeping (till i found out the next morning that 2 of them were up in the living room talking till 3:30am) so I didn’t want to wake them. After a while, I felt a little better, so I went back to sleep, till I had to wake up a second time. This time, it was 4 am & I didn’t throw-up as much. I finally fell asleep and was at ease till I woke up to Sammy knocking on my door at 10 am. I took 2 tylenols to make my headache go away. Going to class that day with a small hangover was not the working out for me, but luckily tuesdays I get out early. I went back to my apartment after my last class and knocked out for 2 hours. Wednesday I woke up feeling like I had to throw up. I texted Sammy and asked her if hangovers lasted 2 days. LOL she said NO and that I was possibly getting sick. Thursday morning I woke up feeling OK, but after eating a chicken sandwich for lunch, I didn’t feel so good. Dreading through math lecture for an hour was so exhausting. When I got home, I once again knocked out, hoping I’d feel better when I woke up. I woke up an hour later and the nausea was kinda gone, but the feeling was still there. Cristina my other roommate(at this moment you’re probably wondering how many roommates does this girl have…to clear it up, I currently now live with 5 wonderful ladies) told me to drink plenty of warm water or tea and to try and eat warm soup, also to dress warmly if I were to go outdoors. I took her advice and I felt a little better after drinking water and having a little bit of salad. My friend C.J. invited me to a movie night that him and his cousins were holding in Rialto at his cousins house. I had already finished all my homework for the day, so I decided to go. Driving in the pouring rain on the way there, I prayed that God would deliver my safely to my destination. And indeed He did =) Movie night ended at around 2, but I stayed till 3 to talk and catch up with C.J. Driving home was sooo scary. I really thought I’d have to pullover on the freeway and sleep there. Crazy as it may sound, but I couldn’t see the road ahead of my because of all the rain, AND I had my glasses on. What was suppose to be a 15 min. drive, took me 40 min. When I got home I wasn’t so tired since I had already took a nap earlier, but eventually I fell asleep. I’m feeling a little better today. I ate soup in the morning for breakfast but felt like it was too much so I stopped after eating a few bites. I really don’t know what’s going on with my body. I’ve asked a few of my friends what they think is wrong, some say it may be the stomach flu, others say it’s probably just the common cold but idk. I guess I’m just gonna have to try and monitor it for the next few days. Anyways, I’m in the library right now & after reading an email from Joel & Victoria Osteen about receiving God’s Mercy, I broke down. This week had its ups and downs and I guess with all the emotions combined, it was kinda just too much for me. I was too overwhelmed and had to call my mom to pray for me. I always feel better after a prayer. Anyways here was the message from Joel and Victoria:
We’ve all made mistakes. We’ve all made wrong choices; but as believers in Jesus, that doesn’t change our heritage. God doesn’t kick us out of the kingdom because we’re not perfect. Maybe you don’t feel like you deserve God’s goodness, or you think you’re supposed to suffer through life and just endure that problem. But friends, this is what mercy is all about. His mercy will renew and restore you if you receive it by faith today.
No matter what you may have done wrong, you are still the apple of God’s eye. You are still His most prized possession. You can still activate God’s promises by faith today. Why don’t you shake off the guilt and condemnation? Put your shoulders back and say, “I refuse to live below my privileges. I may not be perfect, but I am forgiven. I may have made mistakes, but God knows my heart is to please Him, and I am changing my ways. Even though I may have brought this trouble on myself, I’m going to stay in faith and expect God to turn it around.”
So once again it’s been a while since I’ve blogged and like always a lot has been going on. For starters, I moved out of my apartment room and switched into another room. There was too much going on in my old apartment with my ex-roommates and things just wouldn’t have worked out. My laptop, along with both of my ex-roommates, got stolen the night before I went to Sacramento to visit my best friend Jackie. For some reason, my ex-roommates think that I have something to do with it. Yeah things are kinda like WTF right now but for the most part of my Life right now I’m happy and satisfied. One of my roommates, the one I’ve known for 6 years, she put my business out on twitter. It was totally out of her character and for some reason she blames the devil got the best of her. HMMMM!! but whatever in the end her apology of BULLSHIT didn’t do anything. I did accept it, but the pain still remains in my heart that she did that to me. I guess you really can’t judge a book by its cover. Life after moving out of that apartment has been great. I currently live with 5 roommates and they are all such wonderful people. I’ve told many people about the laptop situation and everyone thinks it’s messed up but all I can do now is just pray that God puts this nonsense to an end. It went to show that my friendship with my “best friend" aka ex-roommate could not sustain. Life moves on and you can never dwell on the past for too long, because if you do, it’ll mess up your life forever!!
New Years was the Ultimate best everrr!! Janus, Jenny, and I had a master plan that was completely bullet proof. It took us about 2 hours to plan the day before, but all went well. We went to Hollywood to bring in the new year with Sean and Ian. I rolled solo. We pre-party’d in Jenny’s car in the parking lot(thanks JimBo for the dranks). After a couple shots of bombass liquor, we headed towards Hollywood Heights Hotel for a club party. Jenny found out that there was a party out in Hollywood for New Years and got us in by talking to the host about our situation. It was a 21+ club. We got to the club and had to wait a little for the host to get us wrist bands. After a while we went down stairs where the club was at. I was dancing with my girls for a while then some short mexican guy comes up behind me and starts dancing. We ended up dancing for a while and when it was 10 seconds before the ball dropped, we both turned to each other and kissed. Wooooooo…lemme tell you….it wasn’t the best but the rest of the night made up for it. Me and the girls, well mainly me, nicknamed him Bartholomu. He wasn’t the exact person I was expecting. Anyways, after a while, the club got kinda bonkey so we decided to head to this mansion party in Hacienda Heights. By the time we got there, there was only 20 people left. We missed the party. I found my brother drunk as fuck next to my friends Jimmy and Jack. My brother def. brought in the new year the right way…FOR ONCE IN HIS LIFE!! lol Soon after we headed home & the next day went shopping. I came to realize, a couple days ago, that I managed to spend $1000 in 10 days. I know it’s bad…but it was worth it. lol
This year is definitely going to be a great year…LOTS AND LOTS OF CHANGE!! Well till next time people….I LOVE YOU!!<3
I haven’t been on here in forever!! But yeah a lot has happened since my last blog, like always right?? Well first and for most, one of my best friends is officially off my list. Over something so stupid and childish that I myself couldn’t even believe. But you win some and you lose some and to be completely honest, it doesn’t really bother me that she’s not in my life anymore. It’s a choice that i made and only time can tell if this is really the conclusion of this friendship. I will always love her & remember her but for now, her presence in my life is invisible. On the other hand, my love life or boy life or whatever you want to call it, I’ve started losing feelings for him. He came to visit and stay with me over Thanksgiving break. I saw his mom for the first time in 5 years and his dad for the first time. It was nice. But I’ve come to realize that, if you really do care and love someone, you’d go to the extent for them and do whatever it takes to show them that you care for them. At the end of the day, I know that the one man that can truly make me happy and not once has ever hurt me, is God<3 He is the love of my life and I’m so happy that He is. I’m trying to get back in touch with God because I feel like I’ve been the lost sheep long enough and it’s time come back home to Him<3 Next fall, for school, I’m going to be attending Andrew’s University, Michigan. I’m so excited for this next chapter in my life. I’m going to be completely secluded from everyone including family. The best part is, it’s a Christian school. So not only will i be able to work on my career and future, I’ll also be able to focus on what God wants me to do. I’m mainly going there because Sheena, Jane’s best friend, went there and she was talking to be about how great the school was & how she could hook me up with admissions. Sheena and I have the same career pathways. She is currently a nurse at Cedar Saiani Hospital. But for the most part, it will be a chance for me to focus on myself and God<3 Right now, I’m currently in Sacramento with my BEST FRIEND JACKIE<3 My original plan was to surprise her, but as always she found out. It’s crazy how we haven’t seen each other in 6 months and we talk as if we just saw each other a couple of days ago. The warm welcoming of the family was the ultimate best<3 My other BEST FRIEND JANUS is officially taken and has a boyfriend. He’s soo sweet and funny…everything needed to make Janus happy. I’m so glad he’s finally arrived in her life. Needless to say, my laptop [R.I.P. 12.13.09] it go stolen from my apartment last night. It sucks and all but everything happens for a reason & I know God will take care of it. Life for me at this point, despite all that has happened, is GREAT!! I have all the great best friends in the world and I am praying for those who aren’t in my life anymore and hoping that God blesses them. Christmas is coming up and all i want for Christmas this year is to be with my family. December 28th is my lucky day..i will be busy that day and probably till the end of break because of the endless shopping Im going to go on. Well till next time loves..I LOVE YOU<3
P.S. memories memories..can they really save a friendship??
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They’ll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don’t judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren’t necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people’s eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you meet that person.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
The right job for you:
You’re a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you’ll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don’t succeed. Don’t give up when you haven’t yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It’s time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
So I woke up this morning at 7:20 because i had to take my roommate to the ortho. it was rather quick with the exception of waiting…but it was watever..they tired to play her by telling her she had to pay $300 before getting seen by the doctor. complete bs. but we got through it. On the way back home, she was talking to me about our friends & it never ceases to exist that you find out something new everyday…whether it may be good or bad. Well anyways..i told you guys id update you on recent things that have happened. Well..i tried joining an Asian sorority(alpha Kappa Delta Phi..KDPhi), which didn’t really quit work out for me. i guess in the end i really lookd at things and it just wasn’t worth it. You basically pay money to make memories that you can make with the friends you have outside of the sorority. I’m not gonna lie, i’ve thought about joining another sorority, an inter racial sororit. If you know me well enough, you know that i’d rather hang out with any other race other than asian, i mean i don’t mean to discriminate but i have my little pack of asian girls who i can stand & who i can trust…all them other ones..well if i mean that much to you then take the opportunaty to get to know me. Don’t expect me to like you right off the bat, but just know what kind of person you are approaching. Other than that, school has been going pretty well. I should be studying for my midterm of friday but i figure id blog first. Im really gonna try and blog more. So here are a few pictures from my pledgeship.
This was our first group picture. THIS IS THE MOST ASIANS YOU WILL EVER SEE IN ANY OF MY PICTURES..UNLESS IM WITH MY CHURCH FAM.i still love these girls..but just the sorority itself just wasn’t for me.Till next time..I LOVE YOU!!
So i know its been a while since i’ve bloggd dont really feel like saying much but a lot has been going on once again. lol but yeah here are pictures from last night. maybe ill talk about what happened another time.
Pre-Party’n it up in the car.
WE ALL LOOK HELLA CUTE!!
Kappa Halloween is overrated…next year…its all about SB!! till next time…I LOVE YOU GUYS!!
I woke up this morning feeling ready for the day. I went to my psychology class, took the quiz & watched some video on a Japanese Daycare Center. It’s amazing what kind of dumb-ass accusations Americans come up with about the asian culture. I wish the world that we lived in could be more peaceful & understanding, but as far as I know that’ll never happen. Anyways back to reality, my best friend from 3rd grade Trish & I caught up on everything last night. So much has happened within the past 8 years that we haven’t spoken to each other. We kinda just fell out our friendship. “There’s a reason why we stopped talking and there’s a reason why we’re in each others lives right now!" That’s what she told me last night & I completely agree with her. So I’ve started on my Eve costume for halloween. I can’t wait for the finishing product. Thanks to all those who have encouraged me Janus,Jenny, and Sade. I’m still on my grind on working out and staying healthy, NO ONE WANTS A FAT EVE!! lol I hope my friends find peace somehow soon, because seeing them sad puts me down too; I feel like I’m of no use to them. You guys are all in my prayers. This weekends BBQ at my house was wateves, felt like i should’ve stayed home with the family, then again with all my emotions, I couldn’t. Well its back to my life now…Till next time..I LOVE YOU!!
“I miss you so much. I never meant to neglect you. I’d give you the world if you were here. I think about you every single day. All I can say is I’m sorry & wipe the tears away. I love you always…LOVE MOM!!”
So I have theeeeee Bestest Friend EVERRRRRR!! I LOVE MY BEST FRIEND JANUS HO!! LOL ahhaha well technically, I have 1,2,3,4,5,6…7,8,9 & 10. I have 10 BEST FRIENDS!! I know you must be thinking I’m crazy and it can’t happen, but uhhh…I’m me and I can do whatever I want. LOL. But yea Janus is my main betch!! This girl and I have been through the worse and honestly now we’re the best of friends!! Our story/journey of being Best Friends goes wayyyyy back to when we were 4years old. It’s a long story and I don’t really feel like getting into it,but what matters is that WE’RE BEST FRIENDS NOW!! Anyways, moving on, my temecula guy and I are doing great. I woke up to him next to me yesterday morning. No nothing happend!! lol I woke up to him saying “GOOD MORNING BEAUTIFUL!!” UGHHHHH!! My heart was beating so fast!! lol He has my heart fluttering when he kisses me, hugs me, caresses my skin, touches my hair..etc. This boy has lowkey swept me off my feet. Hopefully this is the end for the search!! This saturday, my family’s having a BBQ at my parents’ house and he’s gonna be there, along with my best friends Janus, Jenny, Briana, Yanise, Sade, Jojo, and Jhavann. I really hope my parents like him. School is going great; I love going to all my classes. My best friend Chris unfortunately didn’t come to the Block Party. He had some art thing for school so he didn’t make it this weekend. I’ll post up Block Party Pictures on my next Blog. For this weeks pictures, me & my main best friend JANUS!!
Today was my first official day of my second year and I must say it has been pretty good. This summer was pretty rough with all the ups and downs, but I’m glad I got through it all. I have a new roommate, her name is Sade. She’s hella chill and she’s just like me and my other roommate Yanise. We officially named our spot The DollHouse. For the past 5 days, all three of us have gotten all doll’d up to go out. LOL I don’t know why but there would some night where we would get all dressed up and go to some wack ass place, but all in all its still fun for us. So updates on guys!! lol. I am currently talking to one guy right now and his name is Patrick. He’s Phillipino!! YES I KNOW!! lol I met him through my sister Jada, whom i havent seen in forever till about a week or 2 ago. He’s such an amazing guy and we are mos def ON THE SAME LEVEL!! So hopefully this goes well. As for me and Chris, we’re still friends..& letting time take its course. Here are some flicks from the past couple of days.
Girls Night Out Part 1,2,& 3
Beach with my Roomies<3
I have a very good feeling this year is going to be good!! Till next time..I LOVE YOU!!
So I know it’s been a while since I last updated you guys. There has been a lot that’s been going on. I am currently working 3 jobs and today was my last day of summer school. Let’s see, since my last post: my roommate Yanise had her 20th birthday party at our appartment and I am working at KFC in Montclair, Mrs.Fields in Brea, and a club in Ontario. There’s really nothing to update about other than the fact that I’ve been working a lot and that’s why I don’t have time anymore to do anything. I’ve also been thinking a lot and observing my surroundings a lot. I’m trying to be more careful with myself, since bad stuff always seems to seep into my life. Fall 2009 quarter starts september 24th and my mom still wants me to keep all 3 of my jobs. I am going to try and take 4 classes. To be honest, I know my mom wants what is best for me, but sometimes I don’t think she realizes what she is doing to me can really tear me down. Since I’ve started working these three jobs, stress couldn’t be anymore worse. Driving back every night is my relaxation/death. I always find myself wondering off and having my mind just drift. I have been close into getting into a car accident almost 3 times since. I know it is not safe, but hey, I gotta do what i gotta do. My mom is my best friend, I know if anything she wants thee best for her daughter. If I were to tell anyone about my entire past, they’d probably say no that lady is effing with your life, but those are people who don’t know me, so i expect those comments. For those of you who do know me, Please, I need some input on my upcoming decisions.Guys right now have a weird obsession with me. Well at least I know of 2. It’s kind of creepy but sweet at the same time. I don’t know why but the ones that keep approaching me just aren’t what I’m looking for. I pray to God that my significant other is safe & will take me out of my misery & just sweep me off my feet soon!! Well there is still much to do on this day. I’ll try to update more often, but if anything you guys know why. UNTIL NEXT TIME…I LOVE YOU!!
Here are pictures from yanise’s birthday:
we were in the elevator. trying to get people to come..lol
THROUGH THE IT ALL…WE’RE ALL STILL BES FRIENDS<3
BRE & I
BIRTHDAY GIRL//ROOMIIE//BEST FRIEND//SISTER
I still want to go to the beach, my summer doesn’t end till SEPT.23rd. someone take me!!
So after work last night Jenny and I met up and went to the nouveau party in rowland. Shit happens…Lets just say that and Jenny and I ended up leaving to chill with HOMIES!! We went to Blandford, my old elementary school, and just chatted. As of right now things in LIFE are swell. I mean not everything is going great, but it wouldn’t be called LIFE now would it, if everything were to be PERFECT!! I really wish people would stop treating my friends/family like shit. Why can’t guys just appreciate girls?? I’m so tired of seeing my friends/family hurt because of some old bullshit. But this is no place to vent on bs. Other than that my Life is great. “HE" makes me smile!! I don’t know why..but I’m just glad SOMEONE does. Still tired of the games being throw’n at me..when are you ever going to grow up?? Here’s next weeks schedule:
Mon.-school..then PHOTOSHOOT with Scott
Tues. & Wed.- school then work
Thurs.-school..work..then Club with my grls again
Fri.-nothing planned so far, but i have work till 9:15.
With that said I’ll leave you guys with a picture from last night..Till next time..I LOVE YOU!!
I LOVE THIS GIRL & I’D DO ANYTHING TO PROTECT HER..DNT F*** WITH HER!!
Last night Jenny, Janus, and I went to club Deviate, Level 3 in Hollywood. Right after work, I sped to Rowland Heights to meet up with my best friends and off we were. We exited Hollywood Blvd. and made a right and that took us all the way to Downtown LA. lol The girls and I were so scared..lol We made our U-turn and got to Deviate at 11:15. Neil was suppose to get us in for free but they gave him bs about the gueslist. Janus workd her magic on the guy with the guestlist and got us in for free. It was pretty cool..I’ve been there twice already. There were two guys from America’s Next Best Dance Crew there. Me, Janus, and Jenny danced with one of them. There were a these asian guys that we were dancing with for a while too. There was an embarrassing moment at the club for me..but just aim me or txt me if you want to know what happened. lol Anyways, after the club, i droppd the girls off at Arthurs bc thats where Jenny had her car. I was going to go back to my appartment, but decided to go to Greg’s house to bug him. I ended up staying the night. We watched movies all night and then just feel asleep. He was holding me while we were sleeping and i kept moving because it was just too hot for all that. I came back home this morning and me and my roommate, Yanise, went to get our food handlers card. We both passed only missing 2 out of 50 questions. YAY US!! =) We both have work today and we’re going to the hookah bar tonight. Till next time…I LOVE YOU!!
My Best Friends and I
Us and the Asian guys. As you can see we all danced our ass off!!
I still want to go to the beach and six flags before I go back to school. Oh yea. So my mood was all messed up when my mom called me and told me that I need to keep both of my jobs permanetly, as in throughout the year even when school starts. SHE IS DUMB TRIPPN!! but whatever, I’m gonna figure out a way for this debt repay back ish. This really bothers me and I just hope God pulls me through!!
So today marks the day that I have a BIG change of heart. I have officially decided to date white and asian guys. YEAH I know it’s a big change, but I’m just tired of the same thing every time. I am really tired of getting played. But I’m just saying if anything, I want to be in a relationship, so hopefully God can hear my prayer and bless me with someone who really and truely cares for me, not for my body, but for me. I want someone to really get to know me before they try and do anything with me. TO BE COMPLETELY HONEST (and this is for the guys that I’ve “been with”) I am so hurt by all of you. I honestly feel as if you guys just used me for my body and didn’t really take the time to get to REALLY REALLY know me. There’s probably like 3 guys out of all of you who have really really tried. So hopefully someone new or whoever comes and sweeps me off my feet. Till next time…
This was taken a while back when me..Jenny..and Janus went to Santa Monica for a Girl’s Day!! I want to go to the beach at least one more time before summer ends.