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“Nothing is better than receiving God’s Mercy.”

So this week has been quiet the week. Monday was pretty normal. I went to James’s house to kick it for a while. Tuesday night I went to a Lambda Frat. Rush Party. I was planning on rushing for Lambdas’ Lil Sis with my roommate Leah. I’m still in the process of deciding and I haven’t made up my mind yet. But anyway, I got wayyy to drunk that night; I had 4 shots of vodka and 4 cups of beer from playing a game of beer pong with my roommate Antonia. We lost to my other roommate Precilla & her twin in the Frat. I kept one thought in my mind: don’t throw up at the party, if anything do it at home. When I got home I completely knocked out while Antonia and Sammy were talking on my bed. Feeling a little lost in their conversation, I just fell asleep. Everything was fine till I woke up at 2 am and threw up!! It was probably one of thee worst, but not the ultimate worse, throw-up sesh. because I had to take care of myself. All my roommates were sleeping (till i found out the next morning that 2 of them were up in the living room talking till 3:30am) so I didn’t want to wake them. After a while, I felt a little better, so I went back to sleep, till I had to wake up a second time. This time, it was 4 am & I didn’t throw-up as much. I finally fell asleep and was at ease till I woke up to Sammy knocking on my door at 10 am. I took 2 tylenols to make my headache go away. Going to class that day with a small hangover was not the working out for me, but luckily tuesdays I get out early. I went back to my apartment after my last class and knocked out for 2 hours. Wednesday I woke up feeling like I had to throw up. I texted Sammy and asked her if hangovers lasted 2 days. LOL she said NO and that I was possibly getting sick. Thursday morning I woke up feeling OK, but after eating a chicken sandwich for lunch, I didn’t feel so good. Dreading through math lecture for an hour was so exhausting. When I got home, I once again knocked out, hoping I’d feel better when I woke up. I woke up an hour later and the nausea was kinda gone, but the feeling was still there. Cristina my other roommate(at this moment you’re probably wondering how many roommates does this girl have…to clear it up, I currently now live with 5 wonderful ladies) told me to drink plenty of warm water or tea and to try and eat warm soup, also to dress warmly if I were to go outdoors. I took her advice and I felt a little better after drinking water and having a little bit of salad. My friend C.J. invited me to a movie night that him and his cousins were holding in Rialto at his cousins house. I had already finished all my homework for the day, so I decided to go. Driving in the pouring rain on the way there, I prayed that God would deliver my safely to my destination. And indeed He did =) Movie night ended at around 2, but I stayed till 3 to talk and catch up with C.J. Driving home was sooo scary. I really thought I’d have to pullover on the freeway and sleep there. Crazy as it may sound, but I couldn’t see the road ahead of my because of all the rain, AND I had my glasses on. What was suppose to be a 15 min. drive, took me 40 min. When I got home I wasn’t so tired since I had already took a nap earlier, but eventually I fell asleep. I’m feeling a little better today. I ate soup in the morning for breakfast but felt like it was too much so I stopped after eating a few bites. I really don’t know what’s going on with my body. I’ve asked a few of my friends what they think is wrong, some say it may be the stomach flu, others say it’s probably just the common cold but idk. I guess I’m just gonna have to try and monitor it for the next few days. Anyways, I’m in the library right now & after reading an email from Joel & Victoria Osteen about receiving God’s Mercy, I broke down. This week had its ups and downs and I guess with all the emotions combined, it was kinda just too much for me. I was too overwhelmed and had to call my mom to pray for me. I always feel better after a prayer. Anyways here was the message from Joel and Victoria:

We’ve all made mistakes. We’ve all made wrong choices; but as believers in Jesus, that doesn’t change our heritage. God doesn’t kick us out of the kingdom because we’re not perfect. Maybe you don’t feel like you deserve God’s goodness, or you think you’re supposed to suffer through life and just endure that problem. But friends, this is what mercy is all about. His mercy will renew and restore you if you receive it by faith today.

No matter what you may have done wrong, you are still the apple of God’s eye. You are still His most prized possession. You can still activate God’s promises by faith today. Why don’t you shake off the guilt and condemnation? Put your shoulders back and say, “I refuse to live below my privileges. I may not be perfect, but I am forgiven. I may have made mistakes, but God knows my heart is to please Him, and I am changing my ways. Even though I may have brought this trouble on myself, I’m going to stay in faith and expect God to turn it around.”

So once again it’s been a while since I’ve blogged and like always a lot has been going on. For starters, I moved out of my apartment room and switched into another room. There was too much going on in my old apartment with my ex-roommates and things just wouldn’t have worked out. My laptop, along with both of my ex-roommates, got stolen the night before I went to Sacramento to visit my best friend Jackie. For some reason, my ex-roommates think that I have something to do with it. Yeah things are kinda like WTF right now but for the most part of my Life right now I’m happy and satisfied. One of my roommates, the one I’ve known for 6 years, she put my business out on twitter. It was totally out of her character and for some reason she blames the devil got the best of her. HMMMM!! but whatever in the end her apology of BULLSHIT didn’t do anything. I did accept it, but the pain still remains in my heart that she did that to me. I guess you really can’t judge a book by its cover. Life after moving out of that apartment has been great. I currently live with 5 roommates and they are all such wonderful people. I’ve told many people about the laptop situation and everyone thinks it’s messed up but all I can do now is just pray that God puts this nonsense to an end. It went to show that my friendship with my “best friend” aka ex-roommate could not sustain. Life moves on and you can never dwell on the past for too long, because if you do, it’ll mess up your life forever!!

New Years was the Ultimate best everrr!! Janus, Jenny, and I had a master plan that was completely bullet proof. It took us about 2 hours to plan the day before, but all went well. We went to Hollywood to bring in the new year with Sean and Ian. I rolled solo. We pre-party’d in Jenny’s car in the parking lot(thanks JimBo for the dranks). After a couple shots of bombass liquor, we headed towards Hollywood Heights Hotel for a club party. Jenny found out that there was a party out in Hollywood for New Years and got us in by talking to the host about our situation. It was a 21+ club. We got to the club and had to wait a little for the host to get us wrist bands. After a while we went down stairs where the club was at. I was dancing with my girls for a while then some short mexican guy comes up behind me and starts dancing. We ended up dancing for a while and when it was 10 seconds before the ball dropped, we both turned to each other and kissed. Wooooooo…lemme tell you….it wasn’t the best but the rest of the night made up for it. Me and the girls, well mainly me, nicknamed him Bartholomu. He wasn’t the exact person I was expecting. Anyways, after a while, the club got kinda bonkey so we decided to head to this mansion party in Hacienda Heights. By the time we got there, there was only 20 people left. We missed the party. I found my brother drunk as fuck next to my friends Jimmy and Jack. My brother def. brought in the new year the right way…FOR ONCE IN HIS LIFE!! lol Soon after we headed home & the next day went shopping. I came to realize, a couple days ago, that I managed to spend $1000 in 10 days. I know it’s bad…but it was worth it. lol

This year is definitely going to be a great year…LOTS AND LOTS OF CHANGE!! Well till next time people….I LOVE YOU!!<3